Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Y
Dear cousins,
i've always been the oldest
and nothing will ever change that
though i can't have friendly gambles like most people do
i will always adore you all
reunion dinner last saturday
boys and computer (a fact that has not changed)
yep mummy let the kids gang up against you
as you can see, i'm not playing with themit's a first
for some reason, this reminds me of chang er.
so much for global warming
sparklers should be made illegal
but then again there would be no childhood
6:11 AM
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Y
New room
moved into my new room today
my mom is jealous
she has tried everything to get me to like the guest room
so she can steal my room away from me
my room finally has the ILLUSION of space
hah!
now i won't be jealous of my brother's room
hmmm...
i'm missing a bean bag
i shall ask for a red bean bag for my birthday
this should be the best birthday present i ever got from my parents
a room make over
now everything is organised
i wonder how long is this 'tidiness' going to last though
like my dad said,
my room looks like a library
1 shelf of all 3 sciences notes
1 shelf of maths and languages
1 shelf of humanes
can't wait for jc
then can throw all of them away
especially chinese!
oh yes
congrats to all the sec 4s
i'm very proud of my school(:
6:06 AM
Friday, January 18, 2008
Y
Going On
i'm tired beyond tired
sick for way too long
i need the rest i deserve
yet can have not
7.30am, school
a place we can't escape
somehow still enjoy
yet i wonder why
don't we have a choice?
sitting on chairs hard as rock
we listen to what we're taught
as what people call 'education'
sing in our ears
yet hear not
the songs go on and on
like a soothing lullaby
in fact,
the best lullaby
our tired eyes close
darkness envelops
into deep slumber we fall
a feeling so sweet
then all of a sudden
the song halts
there it was
a split second of peaceful silence
no longer the lullaby
but a mocking tune
our ears can't escape
eyes flutter open
no more darkness
just the light
3 words heard 'sorry miss lara'
and the songs play again
then at 1.50pm
the bell rings
a relief soon to forget
for the day doesn't end
it goes on and on
we pack our bags
enjoy the moment of liberty
but it was not meant to be
for an end meant a start
2.30pm, cca
something brought by the moe
something we feel obliged to attend
something like an investment
something for a better resume
down the dungeon
into a strange new world
filled with darkness and terror
here a creature resides
the air is stale
with a distinct smell of metal
metal??
maybe it's those iron bars
iron bars?
just the cages we're held in
what was meant to build character
has brought unity
unity of it's prisoners
finding a mean of escape
to find flaws and loop holes
in this system we call cca
then the day moves on
we're left drained
but work never ends
does it?
through the night
we work our brains dry
we work our eyes blind
we see nothing no longer
but nonetheless our hands writes
work work work
what else have we to do?
it has a deadline
i have to go on
but there comes a point
nothing seems to matter
i sit on the ledge of the balcony
legs sprawled on the sloping roof
i tilt my head up
to gaze at the stars
like a dazzling jewel
of the ebony black sky
i think about my day
my work
my life
my present
my future
tears fill my eyes
though not knowing why
they stream down my cheeks
ever so warm and wet
i'm tired i know
but i have to go on
tears pour
my eyes go red
my cold hands wipe them away
looking at my glittering hands
i smile
i think about my past
my memories
my childhood
my times
and i know i've had good times
this is my life
i will go on
to think i wrote this during lit camp on sat
no part of it even seems poem-my
haha oh well!
(:
5:56 AM
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Y
the day to last
WESTLIFE LYRICS
"The Rose"
Some say love it is a river
That drowns the tender reed.
Some say love it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love it is a hunger
An endless, aching need
I say love it is a flower,
And you it's only seed.
found the lyrics and the way it's phrased
nice
and oddly sweet..
3:24 AM
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Sick Y
i'm literally sick
and sick of school
it's already sunday
and i have not touched any of my homework
homework-
just look at the amount!
ok i forgot to rotate it but nvm
yesterday was induction for sec 1s
generally it went well
but when we played 'double headed eagle' for the sec 1s to take their seat
they walked soooo slowly that we had to repeat the song 5 times
for people like me it's fine since i'm not playing anything
but the wind instruments would have died
ok but to be fair it isn't the entirely the sec 1s fault
Night
went to aunt's house had my parents friends there too
i discovered how small the world is..
parent's friend------ uncle's ex boss, mum's ex-client also same university faculty, 1st class honors
friend's wife-------- mum ex st nicks classmate, same uni faculty
they are both tall so their twin children are also tall
considering they are pri 3 only
i felt so short all of a sudden
then again i always was short
anyway parent's friend the male one, let's just put as A
A loves loves loves loves wine
he has 1000+ bottles
so many that he has to rent a place somewhere just to store them
and they are pretty expensive
there's even a $1000+ one
so he brought white wine and offered me some
i didn't object even though i've never facied wine
have not grown into it yet (meaning i'm still young:))
so i just took a little
my first sip
oh my gosh it tasted sooo good
it's something like desert wine,sweeter than usual
and the alcohal percentage is ony 8
that was the best wine i've ever tasted
it's the first time that i actually went to get a 2nd glass
ok i usually cannot resist temptations
but i had self control as to make sure i didn't gulp it down at one shot
even though it's only 8%, i don't want to be drunk
especially with friends there
so i sipped it like a proper lady:D
like A said ladies usually like this wine
hehe
gosh it's so good...
so after i finished my glass
i proceeded to attack my mum's glass
since she doesn't really drink anyway
i offered my services to help her 'clean'her glass
but after my second glass my parents didn't let me have any more:(
well can't bame them though
they spent the past 14 years making sure i don't actually drink
and i don't think they would want to spoil all that in a night
ooh then the wife brought white chocolate cake and walnut cheese cake!!
i love white choc and cheese cake
yesterday night was cloud nine
even though i had sore throat i still insisted on eating the choc cake
it's worth it no matter what!
ok i can't wait to go to their house
since i can get to have wonderful food there
on the way home i told my parents
this is bad,
i like EXPENSIVE wine..
haha, that bottle i drank last night wasn't cheap at all..
oh so nice.
8:25 PM
Friday, January 11, 2008
i'm tired Y
1st week of school
i have NO TIME already
my life seems to revolve around
school band tuition
and now band is being changed to mondays instead of tues
not much of a difference
but i'd rather had it all at one shot
and get it over and done with
now my agony is being prolonged
i use to love mondays
well since i'm free to do anything in the afternoon
monday-band
wed-band
thurs-band
fri-tuition
sat-tuition
sun-tuition
and then the whole week repeats itself
fridays are a treasure to me even though i have tuition at night
i can still 'party' in the afternoon
but noooo today just had to be sooo perfect
7.30-1.50=school
2.30-6=band
7.30-10=tuition
i'm not phyically exhausted, rather the opposite
but mentally just dead
gosh i'm starting to not like maths!
and that is very very bad
all thanks to our technically nice teacher
one who attempts to win favour of students yet does not
horrible at teaching
extrememly fast
don't understand what on earth is she say (it's like she's speaking tamil)
everyone is soo mentally exhausted after maths lessons
especially yesterday since we had double maths period
now higher chinese period seems so appealing
and considering this is coming out of me
it's incredible
forexample yesterday
i had maths and chinese homework
normally i would finish maths first and then talk about chinese later
yesterday
i look at chinese then maths
chinese then maths
i picked chinese and was more than happy to do it
then i went to sleep without completing maths
i was just so so so sick of it
anyone proud of me??(:
she's definately on my list of people i want to throw my shoes at
haha don't worry no peers in it
signs: this girl is tired
7:22 AM
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Y
i need lit notes
anyone willing to donate??
the school should really tell people like me who takes 9th sub
what on earth are we suppose to do?!
anyway according to azel,
lit students might be going to new zealand and england!!
cool right
i miss new zealand
the life there is so laid back
play play play
fun fun fun
but then like my parents said
if we ever migrate there
we won't be able to come back
since in the new zealand there is NO stress
if i come back to singapore i'll start pulling my hair with all the school work here
i miss the sheep..
i miss the cottages
6:05 AM